Stay Brutal

I almost wish I was at work right now.

There SERIOUSLY needs to be some phrase or code word that can be announced that means tampon needed, help. Aunt flow is a little obvious now. :/. ::sigh:: today.

The Con- Tegan and Sara Starstukk-3oh!3 Excuses- dead vail Shake It Out- Manchester orchestra Dez Moines- the devil wears Prada.

Good morning suckers!

thatawkwarddisneymoment:

Whuh huh huuuut!?! Bahahaha

It’s one of those moments where I’m mad at myself because I can’t help but hang on your every word. Even though I swear you’re messing with me. You’ll do the most idiotic things that just piss me off and one sheepish smile offsets the whole damn thing. I pray every night to forget you. To move on. To find something that matters. I’m not sure if you still being here is god telling me to press on or maybe he is using you as an example. Either way I suppose I am stuck. Perhaps this is my bad karma. I don’t know. Frankly I just want something to change. Anything.

While I blog:

While I “do my homework”:

And while I shower: 

But I immediately stop singing when I hear someone coming into the house:

 

My life hahaha

I dreamt of the most eloquent kiss. A kiss there was barely anything to, but the kind that leaves an imprint on you. The kind you would find in Gone With the Wind or Breakfast At Tiffanys.

It was happy and meaningful, not forced and rugged. It was, in every sense of the word. Perfect. It was the kind that doesn’t exist anymore. The beautiful kind.

It was so irrelevant to the rest of the dream. I think I’m okay with that. My sub conscious works in mysterious ways. * do not avoid boys in white shirts. :]

thatawkwarddisneymoment:

What!?!

emilyvstheworld:

I’m gonna stay eighteen forever
So we can stay like this forever
And we’ll never miss a party
cause we keep them going constantly
And we’ll never have to listen
to anyone about anything 
cause it’s all been done and it’s all been said
we’re the coolest kids and we take what we can get

YOU’RE JUST JEALOUS CAUSE WE’RE YOUNG AND IN LOVE
YOU’RE JUST JEALOUS CAUSE WE’RE YOUNG AND IN LOVE
YOU’RE JUST JEALOUS CAUSE WE’RE YOUNG AND IN LOVE

but, my is it flattering ;] thank you randoms :D

 Apparently I no longer have a best friend. I received a special phone call just to hear this said to me. Forget about everything we’ve gone through with each other, life moves on. And by life moving on I mean best friends find jealous girlfriends, and best friends do not know how to man up and tell said psycho that there is nothing to worry about.

 But of course, history repeats itself, and it has been repeated tonight. I’m not one to give up on lost causes, but I am done. I can no longer be the person people hold on to so dearly until the next best thing in a mini skirt comes a long. I have lost way too many people, burned far too many bridges to turn back now.

Perhaps he was right, perhaps the “Ice Queen” is back. Isn’t “this” karma for being the “Ice Queen” in the first place? Mr. Ex BF insulted me SO many times for playing the role. Moving on to the next warm blooded, american boy who didn’t know what was coming, while the last wondered why he was suddenly feeling an icy chill.

I’m good at getting rid of people, so it was only a matter of time before someone got rid of me, right? Oh, but why fret darling, he isn’t really gone forever. No, he isn’t, he is still here. I may have lost a best friend, but I gained a “regular friend”. Yes, a regular friend, I’ve always wanted one! But I shouldn’t really worry, because if I have a problem or I just need to talk, I’m still allowed to call. But not too late, and not for long periods of time.

Always one to be put on the back burner, never one brought in close. I was fine with this for so long. I’m not a fan of being in the spotlight. Some things are just worth fighting for, right? wrong. again.

But I will do what I am good at. I will slap a smile on my face, crack a few jokes, tell everyone I am fine and pretend that everything is A-okay.

How about this weather we’re having.